A Few Changes

Hey Everyone! Wow. It seems like forever since I have posted anything. Things have been extremely crazy to say the least. Today was Charley's 2ND Birthday. It is so hard to believe that two years ago Ryan and I were celebrating the greatest thing to ever happen in our our lives. Now, just two years later, we are facing the greatest fear of our lives. However, we don't allow ourselves to remain in fear for long. We know that God commands us to not be fearful, but rather faithful. I'm not going to go into a lot of detail in this posting, but I wanted everyone to know that I am not beginning chemo tomorrow. After receiving the news that my lymph nodes tested negative, we are leaning towards having the surgery first. However, because of my diagnosis (more on that later) and the aggressiveness of my cancer, we are trying to make the right decisions. Unfortunately, my oncologist is on vacation this entire week, so I have been left with a lot of unanswered questions and no where to turn. I am going to try and get in touch with my primary care physician tomorrow. Ryan and I are both hoping he can help us with some decision making. My plan by the end of the week is to be scheduled for a bi-lateral mastectomy or have had my first chemo treatment. Ryan and I have talked about our situation and probably come up with at least a hundred different ways to handle it. Please pray that God would give us discernment and wisdom in the coming days. We are longing for a feeling of peace in this decision making process. We are also aware that our way may not necessarily be God's way. Finally, please praise God for answering our prayers and giving me negative lymph node results. The journey ahead is a long one, but God is holding our heads up high. Thank you God for all you have done. Please take this cancer from body. Give me strength and healing.